i am so unbelievably afraid to love you because you could destroy me completely. I guess i have fallen too far to go back now. what am i saying? i am already head over heels for you…and i don’t know if i want to be. i thought love was supposed to be this magical thing, but in reality, its excruciating. my anxiety is the worst its ever been all because of you. love is not at all what i thought it would be. i am so crazy for you, i scare myself sometimes because i never thought i would become this love sick girl. i am miserable. miserably in love…but i know if i didn’t have you, all hope would be lost. i would not be able to go on without you, but i am barely going on with you…this is torturous…i never wanted this.